Hello I am embarassed that I am here today asking for a no pay back money grant (unless I hit the lottery of coarse!), then you will be paid in full with a small stipand. But I honestly don't know what to do? I am a man. I am supposed to be the rock I should support my family, like all the good loving husbands and fathers do out in the world every day. In 1995 I injured my cervical spine at work . I did the stint at physical therapy for 8 months. I could not afford to do another job that payed less at that time, I had an seperated from my wife and two of her children from another marriage she had, plus one that we had together to supportand continued to suport all of us. She resented me for having to stay home in chronic pain with my daughter. She literally put me through hell. ran up credit card bills just ahhh. well i continued to work till 2000. BY then I had devorced her and got sto starrt raising my daughter with my current wife of 9 years. Well in the year 2000 I reinjured my cervical spine and had cervical fusion to 4 vertabrea. The pain whould not give. my leg used to give out at work do to some of the repeticious jobs I did. Iv'e suffered to many minor surgeries to remember, siezures do to being allergic to one of my deoresion medications. My depression 1s so bad iv'e tried suicide 4 times. Since then my health just kept getting worse, I will leave it at that for my quality of life is also worse and i consider my self young, I can't work. After being home in chronic pain it gets old. the gov of Ca was suposed to fix wokers comp. he only made it worse they don't know what goes on there (WC)from one day to the next, i just know I have been cheated out of my life by a school system that only starts its cuts at the bottom, that's why basically every inch of my body hurts so bad. that 's why my wife has had to pay our mortgage with my emergency credit card, our bills are so high and out of control cause i can't work the quality of life other then having a wonderful family sucks. i'm alone all day except when i go to the doctor. I'm embarased to be asking people i don't know for money . I may not even be able to repay it. i know that makes it harder for people to want to help me. i only have one thing in this life and that is my word. I give you my word, as someone in alot of chronic pain, fighting to get better that if i am eevr in a position to pay you back who ever you or all are, I will, if i can't i will contnue to pray for your generosity. but some people out there have so much even i think i'm well off but i'm not whenit comes to it. please help $50,000.00- $100,000.00 or some where in between if it's just to get us out of credit card debt i will send my bill paid in full statement and return what i dont use. im sorry.
